Food Tour. What? Yeah. Part #)(&#^&%

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Posted September 9th, 2010 by what can I do?
This photo rules heavily.
Posted By: Expert on September 9th, 2010 at 01:15AM PST
my dear close loyal pawns,
i just need to express some inner shit that i cant tell anybody because none of my man-whore friends can relate to an emotional fuck up like myself..

im not feeling good at all, not lately. not since my lady friend told me to forget about any chances of a future relationship with her.

she says she wants me and respects me and values me as something closer than an ordinary friend. she also says she hates herself for not "feeling" what i feel for her because, according to her, i fill all of the aspects she looks for in a man.. that im the "perfect guy", but she just doesnt feel IT.

i do feel IT. its that funny sensation in the belly that makes you feel fucking good, the kind of feeling that inspires you to go on and motivates you so very much every day. i think and daydream about her. i am myself with her and have a blast, no fake bs or wannabe that bs. we laugh together so much. she understands and knows me so well.

at first we were friends, and we got closer, and i, sometime in these last 7 months since we met, i started feeling her. to like her.
and believe me, its not that type of unconditional love.. shes so fucking awesome, oh so special. i do see her minimal defects, im not blinded by my feelings. its her qualities that i see and outshines our ugly human nature.

of all the people ive met, i feel shes the one person i wanna share so many experiences with (and we have certainly had our fair share of awesome going to STAY GOLD premier!)
shes "the one" in that sense, that type of "partner in crime" thing..
i dont tolerate her, i ACCEPT her.

im in love of my best friend, and it shatters my world and my inspiration the fact that she gave up trying "feeling it" on me.
it shatters my world that she even encourages me to meet other girls in order to forget her.

shes part of my life, i cant stop seeing her because thats not what friends do... she relies on me just how i rely on her, we hang with the same crowd..its unavoidable not to bump into her!
and its not that i wanna get her away from me, i cant stop loving someone if i see that person constantly...

but you know what? i DONT want to stop loving her. most people tell me to forget her and move on, but i DONT want to forget her and move on.
"hope is stupid" my friends say.
it might be hope what i have, but i also know that shes so fucking worth it.

"what will you do when i like or start dating someone?"
she asked
"dont worry, that will be my problem" i said.
only then i think ill give up, i dunno.

is it possible to WIN someone after all this? how can i treat her as a friend and as a man? is that even possible..? if yes, how can i be a man?

im not selfish. like any healthy relationship/friendship, i obviously care and respect her. shit must be reciprocal in a couple.
i want and would like her to be happy, but my wish is that her and i were happy together.

all this shatters my current world.
Posted By: fresh from mex on September 9th, 2010 at 04:31AM PST
All love is unrequited. All of it.
-J. Michael Straczynski

Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
-Charles M. Schulz

On the streets, unrequited love and death go together almost as often as in Shakespeare.
-Scott Turow

Self-love seems so often unrequited.
-Anthony Powell

Unrequited love is always a great thing.
-Neil LaBute

Unrequited love's a bore.
-Lorenz Hart
Posted By: ed on September 9th, 2010 at 10:45AM PST

This is a sucky situation, and I'm sorry you are in it.

Much art, music, literature, Television, and culture in general revolves around the the expression of pain flowing from the unrequited love you are experiencing right now.

If she is in fact serious with her feelings towards you, your near future will be rough, and when she finds someone else, it will be worse. But IT WILL PASS.

Don't change who you are, and try to become someone else in hopes of winning her back. You are a multi-dimensional person, I can tell from your writing. If she does not love you the same way it will be her loss.

Of course nothing anyone says right now will be of any help to you.

My only advice is to record your feelings.
Posted By: ed on September 9th, 2010 at 10:57AM PST
more stacy please!
Posted By: nuer on September 9th, 2010 at 12:20PM PST
Sorry about that fresh. That's a shitty place to be with someone. Good luck with it. Hope for better days but don't let it control you.
Posted By: john on September 9th, 2010 at 12:59PM PST
after a three year relationship that ended in a burning wreckage of total chaotic feelings of self doubt and hatred I can only say one thing: Time will go on- and you will look back on this as a lesson. Like ed says- nothing anyone says right now is going to make anything seem right. In fact- I really don't encourage doing anything other than what he says to be honest. I wish I would have had someone give this kind of advice when I was going through the worst of it- and yeah- it feels like nothing is worth it, but that's your brain trying to associate everything with her and how much everything would be if you were with her and her her her her her..... but you really just gotta take HER and put it out of your mind. Harder to do than say; But I totally know what you are going through and it really is teh worst feeling ever right now and then later on it will be like "yeah... I went through this I can make my way through it this time" ... sorry I suck at explaining things...... but yeah, I'll stop now. my bad.
Posted By: d1ggitydan on September 9th, 2010 at 01:05PM PST
From that photo we saw, Fresh has a great smile.

I don't have much experience with Unrequited love, but from feeling like they don't care as much as you care for them. Shit hurts. Let it all out,cry, rage, whatever. As horrible and life changing as things may be, with time emotional scars are healed. People come and go in and out of your life for many reasons. And as what Dan said, right now you're heartbroken and your mind is filled with her and only her. Luckily, she's not the world. The World keeps spinning, and you're always going to be you, and you're you and lots of people Like you because you're you.
Posted By: Jgonzalez on September 9th, 2010 at 02:49PM PST
I was going to say something original, but the more I read and re-read the comments.....I feel like it's all been said. You just have to keep on going fresh, things will certainly get better even if it doesn't seem like it right now. I feel for you and hope you feel better soon.
Posted By: Mike on September 9th, 2010 at 05:09PM PST
your words are truly considered and deeply apreciated,
muchas gracias a todos
Posted By: fresh from mex on September 9th, 2010 at 08:36PM PST
your words are truly considered and deeply apreciated,
muchas gracias a todos
Posted By: fresh from mex on September 9th, 2010 at 09:06PM PST
this photo rules.

fresh, i have much respect for you and your braveness. hope the best for you, brother. and respect to everyone who tried making it better. youre all good people, and the reason i love this site.
Posted By: Jacob on September 9th, 2010 at 09:13PM PST
Glad to help,fresh.

Jacob! You've been M.I.A.
Posted By: Jgonzalez on September 9th, 2010 at 09:39PM PST
Listen to Some Morrissey of The Smiths ;)
That's what I do... all day.
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